memoirs of happy memories

i couldnt ever love you more...

2006-01-17T02:42:33Z

laying around, laughing, driving with you... took a bath, laughed some more, loved you all the while.

we have an amazing time together... this time, every time before, and im sure every time after... i love you...
and i meant waht i said, i wishit could just be me and you forever... fuck the world, LETS GO!!!

i live now for the moments that we spend together, and everything else is just a time-killer... my existence is perferrated time with you...
i love you...

i cant wait until we go away together... were doing it on Valentine's!!! (im stubborn)

my theory on life, at this moment...

2005-12-09T22:45:49Z

tomorrow is nothing but another today, but with more yesterdays behind you, and less tomorrows to look forward to...

till you die, which cant come soon enough...

what went on five months ago today?

2005-12-06T03:31:04Z

"hey randi,

what are you doing one month from today?"

-"i dont know..."

boy did i really not know... clueless little girl<333

chew on this fuckers...

2005-11-10T05:04:41Z

champagne for my real friends, real pain for my sham friends.

the last night of summer can definately not be topped...

2005-09-05T20:45:45Z

well, as summer comes to a close, i reflect on the events of the last summer break from high school i will ever have. WOW... honestly. there are very few things that are still the same from when break started... but the people are the same.

tomorrow brings sooo many new things to the table, and i am ready to grab the bull by the horns, and take the last year of mandated "education" in stride.

Do you?
[Color your hair?] yess

[Twirl your hair?] yes
[Have tattoos?] no
[Have Piercing?] oh yes.

[Cheat on tests/homework?] ehh... only when my life depends on it...
[Drink/Smoke?] everything/ cigarettes
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] for the time, yes...in the long run, no.
[Like cleaning?] only after i find cheese in my bed.

[Write in cursive or print?] print.
[Own a web cam?] my name's becky, want to see my web cam?!? NO!
[Know how to drive?] aha, jury's still out on that one.

[Diet?] umm...
[Own a cell phone?] yepp.
[Ever get off the damn computer?] occaissionally.

Have you ever...
[Been in a fist fight?] yes
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] yes
[Stolen anything?] yes
[Held a gun?] Yes
[Drank?] yes.
[Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name?] i dont know... if i didnt remember my name at the time, i dont think i would remember the night in general the next day, or even now.
[Considered a life of crime?] yes.
[Considered being a hooker?] nawww, most of my friends are too nasty to hook up with, how could i fuck a stranger... ahahah JK.
[Cried over a girl?] girlll...? maybe... SLUTS/ CUNTS/ HOMEWRECKERS...yah.
[Lied to someone?] yes.
[Been in love?] yes.
[Fallen for your best friend?] yep.
[Been rejected?] ahahah no im a keeper... not! my name is randi, and i never seem to be good enough for who i want.
[Been in lust?] arguable.
[Used someone?] never.
[Been used?] ooooooooooh darling survey, let me count the ways.
[Experimented with homosexuality?] : *

[Last movie you saw] watched GARDEN STATE last night, couldnt sleep.
[Last thing you ate] cereal, croissants, and reese's peanut butter cups... BREAKFAST IS THE MOST IMPORTANT MEAL!
[Last person you talked to on the phone] my dad.

Do you...

[Do drugs?] what do you mean by "DO"
[Have a dream that keeps coming back?] yah i have.
[Play an instrument?] nope. (who's going to be the one to comment and say i play the skin flute or ball-sack-a-phone?)
[Believe there is life on other planets?] yes. i wish i lived out there instead.
[Read the newspaper?] no, too dirty.
[Believe in miracles?] believe it when i see it.
[Believe in God?] what's god?
[Go to or plan to go to college] i feel i am as educated as im going to get.
[Wear hats?] fuck yah.
[Hate yourself?] i dont hate anyone, or anything.
[Have an obsession?] quite a few.
[Have a secret crush?] im not good at keeping my own secrets.
[Have a best friend?] two or three.
[Close friends?] a million or so.
[Like your handwriting?] ehh...
[Care about looks?] i like to look how i feel...

Are you a...
[Wuss] dont think so...
[Druggy] no.
[Daydreamer] yes.
[Freak] in the morning... jasty in the evening.
[Dork] always.
[Sarcastic] NOOOOOOOOOOOOO, not me.
[Angel] aha... to each their own.
[Devil] depends on what time of the month it is.
[Shy] not really.
[Talkative] if the topic of the conversation is necessary..then i talk alot.
[Flirty] ive been told many things about the subject of my flirtation... mixed feelings.

glassxheart @ 2005-08-23T14:01:00

2005-08-23T21:06:14Z

Tara is now officially my sister, in all aspects of the word... id like to dedicate this to her... it is her anthem!!!

And i just been smokin' and smokin'
Smoke another blunt, roll another up
You know that weed can really ease your mind
Every time I smoke good reefer that indo high makes me fly
If everyboby smoked a blunt, relieve the mind, the world could
be a better place
If everybody took a break and we all just got wasted
Toked out (out, out out), smoked out (out, out, out),
choked out (out, out, out), pull another O (out, out, out)
Let's get P-O-D-ded (P-O-D-ded, P-O-D-ded)

The weed can't get no better (no better baby)

And as for me... heres a little diddy i choose to live by:

I love the way she dance, she look like she fuckin' herself
Shawty do a number just touching herself
Freaky ways she can shake ass for days
get kinky in sixty-nine different ways
Jump onstage she get paid she goes off
You got enough money she taking the clothes off
look at that, I tought I taw a puttycat
I did I did
I did taw a puttycat

but we agree on one thing...

JASTYness!!!

glassxheart @ 2005-08-17T01:56:00

2005-08-17T08:56:50Z

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

the gas is running its running on empty...

2005-08-17T08:53:41Z

and the clock keeps ticking...

and my heart keeps beating...

and the pain still hovers & attacks...

and the clouds remain...

and my mind cant break any form of sunlight through them...

and i hurt...

and its always there...

and i long, and i love and i long to love...

AND I FEAR EVERYTHING!

Dear Randi....

2005-08-01T05:47:12Z

I love you witht all of my heart.

Don't ever change.

Love Bradley.

light up this cigarette...tonight i will sleep with a gun in my mouth

2005-07-28T12:06:54Z

Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow

I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand....until you hold my hand

I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand...

glassxheart @ 2005-07-26T16:51:00

2005-07-26T23:53:04Z

I LOVE B-RADLEY!!

B-LAWSON IS SEXY AND SO ARE HIS NEW BROWS!!

YEHHH.

I <3 YOU RANDI!

P.S. B-RADLEY IS COOL.COM

just cuz i want to fit in...i mean i really want to

2005-07-24T22:45:44Z

1. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you, if i do...
2. I will then tell what song reminds me of you.
3. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
4. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.

weeeeee...fill it out and we'll see whats up.

maybe i dont like any of you after all<333

"i dont know...just spin around a lil then bend over the toilet..."

2005-07-17T22:14:18Z

you know the night was fun when you get a text the next morning that reads...

"<3 thanks for trying to get me to yak last night.. you are a true friend."

glassxheart @ 2005-07-17T13:11:00

2005-07-17T20:13:34Z

"do you want to stay here for the rest of your life because you didnt wake up that night? i didnt wake up either...but i want you out. out of this prison..."

VOTE FOR WHICHEVER YOU CHOOSE:

THINK WITH YOUR HEART, OR YOUR HEAD? comment back, please.

such a cheesy movie...im so jealous...I WANT IT, I WANT IT, I WANT IT

2005-07-14T08:19:41Z

i now have a ballpark figure of what NEEDS to be said to me at one point in my life...

in "win a date with tad hamilton" (i know, not the best reference) topher gives the best speech about how kate bosworth (who he loves) has six different smiles. &&& he just goes off on all the little things like that.

thats what matters...nothing is better than seeing someone in slow motion, in such detail like that, all the time.

-because then youre in love. thats when youve got something real and you deserve to feel the fireworks when you say those three little words...

P.S.- such a dumb entry.

glassxheart @ 2005-06-29T18:18:00

2005-06-30T01:21:18Z

what's a girl to do?

glassxheart @ 2005-06-20T16:33:00

2005-06-20T23:34:02Z

I Lie Will Always Defeat The Truth
Weight leaves in anger from my shoulders.
Words of wisdom crush hope.
What is real? I thought I knew.
How could I lie to someone, I cared for?
How could you lie to me, your words, pierced me.
For good, this was done.
In the end the truth will shine.
To instill truth in your heart, I beg and plead for you.
A lie from your lips will make me cry out in pain, as I wish for you to go away.
How could I lie to you? I cared for you.
How could you lie to me? Your words pierced me.
The tremble of your soul injects fear into my heart.
I will stand alone.
The gentle mind, the one inside me will never hurt you.
Actions speak louder than words will ever.
So I will show you my sincerity in the shape of my still beating heart.

glassxheart @ 2005-06-20T16:28:00

2005-06-20T23:31:24Z

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
The look stapled on your face cries out for forgiveness,
the one thing that I cannot give.

(Did you ever see that one person
and the way they do these things
and it hurts you so much it's like choking.. choking?)

I can give you freedom from your guilt,
with a flick of my wrist onto yours.
I can give you peace of mind with a forced smile.

I can give you death with the look upon my face.

This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no regrets;
you don't deserve good bye.
This is your freedom in a life of fallacy,
with no last kiss & no good bye.

Here you stand seething with guilt.
Silence only justifies this act of cowardice.
With a short story, the one you add to daily, you are the tragic loss.
No story book ending for this fairy tale of you.
Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen that you hold in your lifeless hand.
Cry for you. Shed tears. Mourn. Wish the end.

(Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person,
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
You let this one person come down on the most perfect moment.
And it breaks my heart to know the only reason you are here now is a reminder of what I'll never have..
I'll never have.. I'll never...
Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in..
standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in.
But this table for one has become bearable.
I now take comfort in this, and for this, I cherish you.
Did you ever look, did you ever see that one person
and the subtle way that they do these things and it hurts so much?
So much like choking down the embers of a great blaze.
It's that moment when your eyes seem to spread aspersions
and to scream confessions at the insipid sky parting clouds.
And you let this one person come down.. come down. I cherish you.. I cherish you.
Just say that you would do the same for me..
just say you would do the same for me
just say you would do the same
just say you would do the same for me
For as much as I love Autumn,
I'm giving myself to Ashes.

i hoped youd be the one to make me better.

grab me, hold me, and promise youll never let go...

2005-06-20T05:45:43Z

well, i figure its been a while, and i havent burdened anyone with one of these in a while...sooo, im going to be really "lj" and ask you all:

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I died tomorrow:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Hair:

WOULD YOU:
» Be my friend?:
» Keep a secret if I told you one?:
» Hold my hand?:
» Take a bullet for me?:
» Keep in touch?:
» Try and solve my problems?:
» Love me?:
» Date me?:

HAVE YOU EVER:
» Lied to make me feel better?:
» Wanted to kiss me?:
» Wanted to kill me?:
» Broken my heart?:
» Kept something important from me?:
» Thought I was unbearably annoying?:

~*::And More::*~
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we met?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you gonna put this on your live journal to see what I say about you?

good love never dies...

2005-06-14T06:03:09Z

For the rest of my days I want you by my side
Tell me what can I say to keep you in my life
'Cause I can never relax
I've got to keep it exciting
Make it attractive
Keep it alive
Keep you coming back
I'm always so frightened you'll see through my act
When the fire is out and I've given up
You come running out, and you build it up

You tell me good love never dies
It only hurts when we burn our eyes
From staring too long at the sun
You gotta throw your hands up
And let the night come

Spoken: I like watching you out there. It's comforting.

Tell me what can I say to keep you in my life
All the words slip away when I look in your eyes
Because I can never relax
I've got to keep it exciting
Make it attractive
Keep it alive
Keep you coming back
I'm already fighting to keep what I have
When the fire is out and I've given up
You come running out, and you build it up

You tell me good love never dies
It only hurts when we burn our eyes
From staring too long at the sun
You gotta throw your hands up
And let the night come
Take your chances
And let the night come

happy 8 months baby...time has flown by, but i remember every moment. here's to forever...i love you.

LoSeRkiD666X: hey my love............hey, MY love:

2005-06-06T05:43:42Z

its really come into perspective for me lately...what matters and what doesnt...what will count and what will be forgotten. and knowing this is so invigorating. my only downfall is that the people who havent touched on this reality yet fail to understand me, but those that do just grow closer to my heart.

p.s.- i have an amazing person in my life. he loves me for being me, and all the stuff that goes along with that. i adore him, hes my life. were cute...and all ya'll would be jealous if you werent so self-involved.

how many people out there can honestly say that theyre in love? if i didnt have this feeling, id be incomplete...if i didnt have you, i dont know what

glassxheart @ 2005-05-13T22:45:00

2005-05-14T05:50:48Z

My only hope,
(All the times I've tried)
My only peace,
(To walk away from you)
My only joy,
My only strength,
(I fall into your abounding grace)
My only power,
My only life,
(And love is where I am)
My only love.

i love these pictures. i miss you. im sorry.

Do you have to let it linger?

2005-05-02T03:21:03Z

you really know how to make someone feel like you dont care about them...conjure up a thought about me once in a while, dick!

oh i thought the world of you. i thought nothing could go wrong. but i was wrong, i was wrong.

Dear Josh,

2005-04-28T05:29:40Z

look around and you'll see that at times it feels like no one really cares
it gets me down but i'm still gonna try to do what's right, i know that there's
a difference between sleight of hand, and giving everything you have
there's a line drawn in the sand, i'm working up the will to cross it
rhetoric can't raise the dead
i'm sick of always talking when there's no change
i'm sick of empty words, let's lead and not follow

i dedicate that guns 'n' roses song to him too...

2005-04-27T04:55:58Z

RIP: Mitch Hedberg

im a little late, he passed on March 30th but fuck ill miss him.